Standing back up again...

.....Ok, so I survived the hair loss yesterday and am forever grateful for Terri coming to my rescue to cut my hair and drop off a bunch of scarfs, wigs, headbands, etc for me to play with.  We will be back on the pavement on Tuesday with a mission to find a great wig I can be comfortable wearing and not look like, well you know...............a porn star. LOL
I realize this is just part of the journey we're all on together.  I know nobody will love me any less without hair than they do with hair.  It's just a vanity thing.  We are all attached to our appearance and associate our own identity with it, whether it be your hair, eyes, height, weight, the list goes on.............So when it's altered by no choice of your own, you feel, well.................violated.  A part of me is certainly angry that I have to deal with a more high maintenance schedule now in the mornings to get ready and go, but it's not the end of the world.  The chemo is working, and the hair loss just proves it.  I just have to remind myself to keep my eye on the prize!
Speaking of prizes..................I want to be engaged!  Our relationship is certainly at that natural evolution but how do you fit it into all this mess?  Cancer and medical bills...............LOL  UGH!  We need to win the damn lottery!  I overheard Tim refer to me as his fiancee on the phone the other night it just lit me up from the inside out...................it's time.  I just need to get all this other mess out of the way.  On day at a time I guess, anybody have any patience I can borrow? LOL
Time to have some fun with this whole hair and wig thing so as soon as I get my new phone I will figure out how to post pics from my phone to my blog and facebook.......................more good times ahead!
I am ELATED with Ryan and Tanner arriving on Friday to celebrate 4th of July all weekend long with the family.  We have a casino day picked out so will make it rain!
FYI, my surgery is scheduled for July 5th to install my port.................one more painful chemo to go and the port will take over.................YEA!!!!!!!!!!
Oh boy, now lets see what kind of drama unravels on the Baccalaureate tonight. LOL
Much love to you all and thank you for your support during the hair collapse!
LIVE WITH PASSION! ~ DJ