Yesterday seem liked an ordinary Seattle day, gray, chance of rain, chance of sun but I had a curve ball hit me while at Virginia Mason for my check up.
As most of you know my recovery has been very challenging most recently trying to heal thru my frozen shoulder and tendinitis only to get hit with a compression fracture last Thursday.............but yesterday takes the cake.
My ct scan came back and showed a lot of inflammation where my surgery was and my cancer marker came in over 2300.............geez did I even start that high to begin with last year?? Anyway, it is very possible the cancer is back so my doctors are scheduling me for another endoscopy surgery so they can go in and take pictures and do another biopsy to verify exactly what is going on.
I was so stunned by the news I didn't ask a single question.....just walked out of there in shock. Unfortunately I was alone so didn't have back up like I usually do but like I said, I was expecting nothing but positive results from all the tests.
It broke my heart to have to tell Tim, my family and friends that we may possibly have a rematch. However, this time I'm bringing the big guns!!!
I don't know how I will get thru this financially but am going to call the hospital today to see if I can qualify for some sort of financial aide since I have been out of work since October. Worse they can do is say no, right?
I am still excited to be a guest speaker for the opening ceremony this Friday at the Federal Way Relay for Life AND participate in next week's pancreatic cancer symposium in Seattle.
I'm so blessed to have such an extraordinary group of friends and support system so I know whatever the future holds..........you will all help me get thru it positively!
Big group hug and please know how much I need your prayers again. I love you all so much!
LIVE WITH PASSION!
DJ
