This round of chemo really knocked me for a loop. I am now realizing I do have a pattern. The 2nd go around of chemo is the one that knocks me for a loop. It sucks my energy and usually comes with nausea. Now more than ever, I know I need to savor my week off and focus on getting that energy rebuilt back up for this 2nd week of treatments.
Now to back peddle. I had a WONDERFUL dinner with my BFF Carmen on Friday night. Gosh she sure makes a pretty blonde!! We met up at the Cheesecake factory in Bellevue Square. Seeing is believing and I know her seeing me happy and alive was just what she needed to feel the faith that I feel everyday. I feel like my BFF is right here with me now and, like every other curve ball life has thrown our way, we will get through this together! We always do! We don't have time to feel angry or be mad at God and wondering "why Dawn"..............we just need to believe God put me on this path for a very good reason, and that I will survive it and make it a positive journey!
Right after dinner I got to go pick up Ryan from the airport. Well, by this time I'm really tired and exhausted, but at the same time so excited to have my two sons home with me, I could hardly stand it. Had Ryan in tow by about 9:30 pm and brought him home. Not any home he's known before, but the place he knows he'll always have a home because that's where my heart is. I think it's important for kids to have a place they know as home, even if they never lived there. Home is Mom. I'm confident both Ryan and Tanner know that. I've moved so much over their lifetime, not sure they can even remember every house, but they remember being home with me, regardless of where that was.
Tanner and Amanda arrived with their new puppy "Marley" around 10:30 and unfortunately I could not keep my eyes open any longer so I went to bed at 11pm. I think I was out before my head hit the pillow LOL
Anxious for morning, up at 5am like usual for my bowl of special K chocolate to get something in my stomach to settle it down and get my meds in and working before the boys got up. I made them cinnamon French Toast for breakfast, like the good old days. LOL It's so cool seeing them around table with me. Seems like a lifetime ago when they were around the table all the time. Where did all the time go???
We had a really nice dinner with my folks last night here at the house. I BBQ'd salmon with my secret sauce, not that I could taste it since my metal mouth is on overload right now. Week 2 is always really have metal and the nose bleeds are the worse then too. UGH! Calgon take me away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We are PUMPED up for casino day today! My folks came over this morning and Dad made his famous amaretto pancakes. Notice how us Polka's have famous foods we are known for..........we like to cook! LOL My brother has his gifts too! All of us that are 21 are headed to the casino later today to make it rain. Tanner is already stressing over the possibility of losing LOL so MaMaLou is pay rolling him if he loses. LOL
Oh, I almost forgot, I got a new watch..............IT'S MY CANCER DIVA WATCH!!!!!! Needless to say, it's purple! As soon as I figure out how to take a picture with my new camera and post it on here I will start putting more pictures on the blogs...........there are lots of things I want to share yet..........the beautiful pot my niece made me, the super cool Cancer Blanket from M'Lee and some other things too.............pictures are worth a 1000 words.
Hope everyone is having as wonderful 4th of July weekend as I am.........much love to you all!!!!!!! LIVE WITH PASSION! ~ DJ
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